Finally, there's some eye candies

Today I have spent the entire day walking around with 3 friends. We took tons of pictures. We also went into many shops and wish to buy some souvenirs but they are way to expensive or the quality of those souvenirs are not good enough.

 

As I walked on the street, I finally found a few cute Thai guys and also some cute tourist. I found this one with a tank top and shorts, wearing a back pack. This guy wears glasses and I think he looks cute. You might be surprised to know this but sometimes guys as geeky and this guy that I found is actually cute, I just can't tell you why.

 

My friends and I end up walking to the red light district and we saw lots of hookers sitting at the bar waiting for customers. Suddenly, a guy come to me and show me a little book. Ok, you're not gonna believe this. What he had showed me is a some straight porn catalogue and a sex show program. What's in that sex show program? Well, there's show about a woman putting ping pong balls in her "wee-wee" and shoot it out. There's also some shows about women putting all kinds of thing in there's "wee-wees" and do something like smoking. Anyway, pussies are gross!

 

There are many stores on the street selling porno and I realized they actually have gay porn. I don't know how much it cost but probably they are over-priced.

Ai-Kaendi

Well, I have just talked to Chucky and then he mentioned eye candy. This is something I am not sure because I didn't get to see much around Thailand yet.

 

This is not fair, in many gay websites, Asian eye candies are usually from Thailand and now I haven't really seen one.

Sawadee Krub!

Hello everyone,

 

I am now in Thailand and that means I have just started my voluntary trip here. It is pretty good so far.

The weather here is pretty good and actually I think it is not that hot.

 

It would be lovely to see some eye candies on the streets :)

 

 

 

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Hey Vinh,

 

Thanks for leaving comments. What makes you think I am not lonely?

Write me an e-mail if you could.

 

What can I see from myself in the next 5-10 years

Today I met a guy and we had a drink. We have talked quite a lot. He is 34 and pretty good looking. The more I talked to him, the more I started to think about what can I see from myself in the next 5-10 years. After half a mintue, I cannot answer this question. I would say it is because I don't really have a plan on what I want to do or what I want to be. (Even being myself is hard because I have trouble identifying who I am)

 

This guy seems to have a decent life and he basically got all he needs, it is kind of hard to believe that he is still single.

Quick Update II

One day I was talking to a friend and I was telling him there was not much to do this summer. Guess what he said? He said I should get more laid.

 

Everyone is slutty inside but I don't want to be that slutty. It's not like I don't want to get laid but given the fact on how I look, people don't really want to.

 

I have met quite a lot friends online and they/ we sugguested to meet for fun, and we sort of exchange pics. They were fine about how I look and sometimes even gave comments like good lips or look cute etc... The only thing is my body shape.

 

No wonder why I so fuckin' hate myself. Yesterday I was trying to get some new clothes and many also a few pairs of trousers and I got nothing. Because I am way to fat.

 

Well, one thing I can blame on is my medication because my appetite has changed since I had started on medication.

 

Anyway, rather than just complaining about all these. I should be doing something.

 

 

Quick Update

I am now basically having my summer vacation and it is boring here. Anyway, I am doing pretty well and I try to make myself to think about the good side.

 

Here's a story I want to tell you guys and I hope some of you would leave comments.

 

A and B have been chatting online for months:

 

B: Should we go on a date.....like a movie?

 

A: Well.....Tim, you have a good personality but I can't really date you. Maybe I will date you if you are much slimmer.

 

Asumme that both A and B are gay guys. What would you say about A?

Anti-social? or just need to be alone?

I was kind of depressed after my exam today. During the exam period, I realize how some stuffs are just nonsense and they have nothing to do with your life but you just have to take it for the damn 3 credit.

 

As I have said I was (actually still) depressed and want to be not alone, I tried to call a few friends and they are all up to something. Actually I have only called two of them and probably they are the two I would hang out with. What I am saying here is probably "motivated" by my bad mood but I believe it is true. The fact that being the only child of the family do affect me in different ways. I used to being alone, I don't know how to make friends with people, I am always paranoid, I don't think people understands me. All these factors add up together and it made a anti-social or a "me" that have the tendency to be alone+lonely.

 

After all, I just need to not thinking about all these and just be who I am. Now, I am off and I will have dinner with my professor and talk about all kinds of craps and politics.

Don't Ask Don't Tell

I have not written any posts because I have been "studying" for my final exams. Today, something happened and I feel like writting something here.

 

After spending the entire afternoon studying for the exam, a few classmates and I went to a barbeque place for dinner. We had some nice barbequed chicken and other stuffs. On our way back to the campus, someone had brought the gay subject up and talk about how they cannot tolerate homosexual acts between guys and they actually tolerate homosexual activities between women (note: the one who said that is a girl). They more the two girls started to talk about how they cannot stand gay guys and what they thought a gay guy should look like, I feel sad inside. Because I thought they would be gay friendly and as a joke, I am not qualified to be gay because my skin is not very pale and I am not slim etc. etc. etc.........

 

Anyway, what I was trying to say here is even if people ask me about my sexuality, I would not tell them I am gay because I do have low self esteem and to be honest I don't find myself look gay.

 

This is weird but this is also the truth