Coming Out

Dear Chuckie,

I hope you are reading this and I hope you don't mind I put this on my blog. Today is a really special day. Guess what? I bet you have no idea. Let me tell you.Remember last year on the same day, after staying in New York for Spring break, I CAME OUT to you! So I have been coming out to you for a year!!

Can you believe that it's already a year since I came out to you? It just sounds like something just happened not so long ago, isn't it?

I was actually planning on coming out to you before we go to New York, but I was kind of afraid to do that. I don't know why I was afraid, maybe it's because I am not ready for that.

One day when we were in New York City, I was acting kind of weird and make those excuses for getting into the library (I remeber one of those excuses is to get something for my aunt at the gift shop nearby). I met Brent Hartinger at the library and I am glad I have talked to him, he encouraged me to come out to you and not to worry to much. I am glad that I came out to you after the trip to New York, it really changed my life.

Thanks for showing me all the books and videos (not porn) that you have about homosexuality and I got to know more about what being gay is, and thanks for listening to me about how I feel and all the confusion I have and giving me advice.

Remember the trip to Indianapolis? I had so much fun with you travelling around the city. We went to the gayborhood and it was awesome. I remember we saw "7,8, and 9" at the same time when we were crossing the street at Indy. There's so many good memories...

I just wanna tell you that you're pretty important in my life. Without coming out to you, I might be just a miserable lost gay teenager.

Miss you,
Jon

Gay Rape

Eventhough I said I'm gonna sleep soon, but I feel like I should have one more entry before I sleep. I don't think I have name this entry correct but I should just continuing this story. This is happened during my high school exchange year in the midwest.

There was this jock guy from the tennis team and I don't really know him (let's call him tennis boy) . He started to kick me in the hall way at the beginning of the school year and I have no ideas who that was at first. Then one day we had this activity from somewhere and we teamed together with another 4 kids for a game. Tennis boy started to do something awkward to me such as kicking my back with his back and something like his. He also keep doing silly thing at school as well. I don't know why he is so annoying.

In the last 3 months of the exchange year, Tennis boy always call my name in hallway with no reasons. One day, he saw me going to the drinking fountain for some water and he stopped next by me, when I finished drinking water, he suddenly hugged me from the back and it is kind of embrassing. And guess what Tennis boy said?
He said I am "the person of love" and keep saying something even make me more embarassed. My host sister also saw how embarrassed in the hallway.

I actually kind of like how tennis boy hugged me from the back but it just happened to be at the high school hallway and I am closeted. Tennis boy is cute but he is not gay coz he go to this crazy Baptist church. If the boy who hug me is someone I love, it would be even better.