Later this afternoon, I was buying stationeries and other stuff for school and also bread for my breakfast next day.
Someone suddenly called me name and I looked back, that was my classmate at the old school.
He look a little different than before maybe it's just because I didn't see him for a long time.
That was great he called me name, I thought I was totally neglected by all my ex-classmates!
And then when I was walking to the shop, I was thinking about some of my crushes in the past......
I could not make any conclusion on this but I was keep thinking about it.
I can not tell who is my first crush cause it might be like when I was 10 or even younger.
I looked back some of the crushes I got lately and I feel a little bit shy. Of course people in the street won't know what I am thinking in my mind.
I don't really have any crushes at school right now but I saw a lot of eye candies in the streets and everywhere in Hong Kong. There's many tourists are hottie!!! So my latest crushes would be back to last year, while I was in the midwest as high school foreign exchange student.
There are tons of cute boys at high school and in nearly every class I had. Also there some cute one I can find during lunch time. I can remember that I had a crush on one of my English classmate there, let's call him Dave.
Dave was sitting in the front corner of the room and when I got to the classroom for that. That was actually the second lesson of the class because I changed my schedule, everyone was curious who I was except the girl who knew me since the welcome party. Dave looked at me and I do realize he "exist" and he is so cool. I looked at him like every English class and pretend as looking outside the window.
(I know that would be cool to put some high school kids pic that seems to be the type of Dave, but I don't have any)
We never talked but it seems that he kept looking at me every lesson too. I am not sure about this, he might be looking at girls on my side. He has many female friend and seems like a funny guys and talk a lot with some jerk-like boys, I do think he might be gay but I must be wrong when I saw some picture of him with some girls and friends in party.
Then in the second semester, there was a class clown in our class and he is a hilarious boy, he always do something nasty and being funny. He was sitting with Dave and he always do something nasty on Dave and which was pretty funny. One day Dave was "gay raped" by that boy and he looks kind of enjoy it or so.......
There was a project about a book we've read in the middle of the second semester and I was absent when the teacher was giving works for the classmates, so I can ask some other classmates to let me join their groups for the project.
I know the class clown pretty well and being friends at school and he is doing the project with Dave too, so I asked Class Clown to let me join their group.
We made this video clip for the book and it was fun. At least I got to be know them more???
Well, that's all I can talk about this for now.
By the way, I really miss the days as exchange student.
My life has been so different since this two year. If you ask me about being gay, I would say last year is one of the turning point! I read Geography Club at the high school library last year and I like it very much. It brought me to think more about being gay and thin more about those things. 
I also read the sequel of it as well, The Order of the Poison Oak and The Split Screen. Those are all cool books and it is totally funny and reveal all the high school things. The way how Brent let Russel talking about his life is funny too!
