Signals....Emotions....Depressed feelings

I feel slightly better since I have started medication. I thought this kind of good feeling will keep going on but it doesn't. Recently I feel kind of depressed in a sudden and then suddenly felt not so bad. I was told that this might have to do with the medication because it will speed up the emotional cycle and it also makes you hyper and/or depress all in a sudden.

 

I just knew I have the feeling of something is not going right and sometimes I feel like action and inaction is nothing different. One thing I am sure about is I did gained weight since I have started medication. It seems that I eat more than usual, and I cannot help to stop eating.

 

I have been thinking about all sorts of things (as always), some little thing or nothing triggered me to think about all these. One day, I was thinking what it mean to be gay and of course I have no idea. Then I started to think about what I really expect and want from a guy and I have no idea either. I just know that I love seeing eye candies and some nice stuff and that's all....

 

About this classmate, I found him cuter than before and it is probably because I haven't seen him for a few days. After class and on our way to the cafteria, he saw this sophomore girl and he said that girl is probably one of the cutest in our major, and he wished he could have girl like her to be his girlfriend. This made me think he maybe straight afterall.