Start Spreading the News

Start Spreading the News, I am leaving tomorrow. (remember? it's from New York, New York, except the "tomorrow")

Ok, sorry for such a rush and let me explain it a little bit.

I am leaving HK tomorrow and I am going to somewhere in China, for security reason, I can't tell you where for now.

Sorry again, I have to keep on packing.

Peace,
Jon

PS. Wish me luck on meeting hot guys!

Chris Carmack

Ah ha! I finally got the nerve make this entry. I am going to talk about Chris Carmack. In case you don't know him, he was the guy Luke at the O.C and Tim at Desperate Housewives, he was a model for A&F a few years ago.

He is totally hot and there's a few youtube clip of him playing Yoga naked, it worth to have a look.

If he is gay, I wish he did some kind of hardcore porn LOL

Talking about the O.C and DH, I found one thing in common for Chris' role on both show, Luke (The O.C) had sex with Julie Cooper and Tim (DH) had sex with Katherine Mayfair.

Well, I mean to put some picture of him but I am really busy. I might do it some other time.

What Had Jon Done in Auckland 2

OK, let me make it clear, there's no body called Rob and I was not watching any Czech Porn, I was just thinking it might be funny to make a entry by third person.

I did what I mentioned on the last post

What had Jon done in Auckland?

Hey Dude, what's up? This is Jon's friend Rob, he is now busy with watching some Czech porn and he forgot to log off so I took this. I should probably tell you some big secrets of Jon.
He probably didn't tell you guys what he had done in Auckland, New Zealand, I think he might be feel bad about something. Let me tell you what I know about this.
He had been eating Baklava everyday in Auckland and I think he had tried all Baklava in town, and I think he gained two pounds for this.
He had also been going to some kind of gaming lounge and playing the slot machine, he must have lost some money and don't wanna talk about this, thank god he left Auckland on the right time.
All the things I have mentioned are not that interesting, I logged into his laptop one day and I found out that he left some message on a chatroom and he was planning to go to a sauna/ bathroom at the city, I think he had been there twice and he did nothing I bet.
Well, that's all I can tell you cause Jon found me typing right now, I'd better stop here and go watch the video with him, maybe we might sleep together, who knows?

Where the hack is Jon?

Hi Guys,
As mentioned, I have been quite busy, and you might wonder what kind of things I am busy with, so here the list:

1/ Get enough high quality of sleep
2/ Meeting old classmates for lunch/ dinner
3/ Reading Newspaper
4/ Reading Blogs
5/ Replying Mails (not e-mails)
6/ Sending e-mails to people
7/ Replying e-mails

You might think I am not that busy but I am, eventhough I am not at school anymore.

I mean to write a meaningful entry but it takes time to organize it, so please wait for it.

Peace,
Jon

PS. Some strange e-mails from somewhere were send to people to add my msn contact, I don't know who did that, that's not me.

PS 2/ Something serious I have to talk about in the forseeable future.

Apologize

Hello Everyone,

I know I haven't been written a normal entry in this blog for a long time and I mean to write a long entry today. Something different happened today and I was keeping myself busy and it's 0am now and I am very exhausted. I mean to talk about my whole trip to Auckland and all the other stuffs.

I hope you guys understand that. For those who have been reading my blog, I would recommend you guys to read the entry on February about my depression, cause I am going to talk about it. If you have just started to read my blog, except the depression entry, maybe you should also read from the beginning. It will be cool for you guys to find some mistakes on my previous entries or leave comments to tell me how to write that sentence in that entry in a better way.

OK, I must sleep now. I am a weird person because if I don't sleep enough, I will have a really really bad headache.

Finally, I hope everyone is doing ok.

Peace,
Jon

Home Unsweet Home

1/ I got home safely yesterday. (after 28 days in Auckland, long flights and 12 horrible hours in Bangkok Suvanabhumi airport)

2/ I feel depressed again.

3/ I want to talk about why I am blue but I can't explain why

4/ Talk about that later.

Coming Out

Dear Chuckie,

I hope you are reading this and I hope you don't mind I put this on my blog. Today is a really special day. Guess what? I bet you have no idea. Let me tell you.Remember last year on the same day, after staying in New York for Spring break, I CAME OUT to you! So I have been coming out to you for a year!!

Can you believe that it's already a year since I came out to you? It just sounds like something just happened not so long ago, isn't it?

I was actually planning on coming out to you before we go to New York, but I was kind of afraid to do that. I don't know why I was afraid, maybe it's because I am not ready for that.

One day when we were in New York City, I was acting kind of weird and make those excuses for getting into the library (I remeber one of those excuses is to get something for my aunt at the gift shop nearby). I met Brent Hartinger at the library and I am glad I have talked to him, he encouraged me to come out to you and not to worry to much. I am glad that I came out to you after the trip to New York, it really changed my life.

Thanks for showing me all the books and videos (not porn) that you have about homosexuality and I got to know more about what being gay is, and thanks for listening to me about how I feel and all the confusion I have and giving me advice.

Remember the trip to Indianapolis? I had so much fun with you travelling around the city. We went to the gayborhood and it was awesome. I remember we saw "7,8, and 9" at the same time when we were crossing the street at Indy. There's so many good memories...

I just wanna tell you that you're pretty important in my life. Without coming out to you, I might be just a miserable lost gay teenager.

Miss you,
Jon

Quick Update

Hey guys,

I am still in Auckland, New Zealand and I have been here for almost a month. It's great that I am not making any troubles but it's time for me to go home.

I am leaving Auckland on 3rd April and then stay a night in Bangkok since the flight to Hong Kong is on the next day.

I promise I will update the blog as soon as possible. Actually I have tons of things I want to talk about.

Peace,
Jon

Comments

Here's some comments I got a few days ago and I want to talk about this:

1/
Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "100th POST!!!":

Do something about your weight problem while you are young. The older you get, the harder it will be to lose the extra kilos. It would be nice of have someone to go to the gym with but that's just an excuse not to go. Besides you might meet someone hunky there. Or swim - a good way to get trim. Maybe you feel yucky now but exercising and seeing your body change will give you more confidence in catching the eye of a cute guy. Ian

Well, Ian is right. I should probably do something about my weight right now. Yesterday I went to the beach with my cousin and he told some picutre of me, gosh, I look more chubby than the past few month. There's also a problem, I am lazy for going to gym, and wanted to have someone go with me is really an excuse. Also, I found out that I can't control my eating habits.

2/
Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "My fucked up life":

It's not your life that is fucked up - it is the context and surroundings in which it is able to live.

If you really can't change the people and surroundings that is causing you so much grief, consider moving to somewhere where you can be truly you.

Much love...

I think I want to talk about this more on my next post. I really want to move to somewhere else. Well, let's talk about this more on the next post.

Auckland , NZ

Hey bitches, what's up? I am now in Auckland , NZ and this is my fifth day here.
So right now I am at the cafe for internet coz my cousin's place don't have internet. That sucks, I can't read all the cool blogs and looking for nice hot stud porn on the internet.

I am having fun here so far with my cousin and his friends.We went to play bowling, snooker and golf (I sucked at it). I also rent movies and TV shows and I watch them everyday. I also went to a bookstore and bought some books so that I can read a little bit before going to bed.

Well, I don't know how long I am going to stay in Auckland, it won't be more than 90 days. Also, I won't be able to update this blog all the time, I will try my best.

Pasta Scene

Have you ever heard of someone using pasta for fun?



The boy in the video is Julien Baumgartner, the cutie at the movie You'll Get Over It.

Conversation 2

The Conversation was about me coming out to a friend.
Today I went to a few sex stores with this friends, and looking for a fleshlight, but I didn't buy one.
End of story

Conversation

Please leave comments if you have any ideas about the following conversation, I will talk about this later.

A: so can I ask you and tell you a bunch of crap
A: don't be pissed or being awkward, ok
B: Alright
A: ok
A:first question
A: what if one of your friend ( male friend) is a homosexual
B:respect
A: i see
A: cool
A:and will you stay away from him?
B: not deliberately
A:what do you mean by not deliberately
B:no, i mean
A: What do you mean?
A: you mean not delibertae stay away from him right
B: ?.?...hu just simple"NO" no
A: what NO I don't understand
B: Which means I won’t
A: ok
B: you know about Vincent right?
A: what happened on him?
B: you didn't know@@?
B: Well, he was with someone…..
A: who
B: i forgot his name= =
B: same class with us
A: Henry
B: That’s it!
A: is that real?
B: Well, I don’t know
A: you mean they had sex LOL
B:: Of coz not la i think
A: well, just kidding
A: even str8 man do things to stimulate their prostate
A: opps, i am saying too much
A: well, which lead to another question I am going to ask
B: ok
A: do you think I am a homosexual?
B: i dun think so...wt? someone thinks that?
A: well, no one thinks I am a homo
B:you think you are gay?
A: well, i don't know what to say now
A:but there's a reason I am asking all these thing
B: wt reason?
A: it's difficult to say it but since I brought it up
A: I should finish what I want to say
B: ok
A: let's just say I am a homo, what would you think?
B: Nothing will happen, at least you’re not having a crush on me
A: ok, i should make it clear now
B: go ahead
A: ok, so I am a homo
A: is because I think i need to let someone know and kind of having some support
B: :)
A: and reason number two is, we are friends, and you open to me
A: and i should do the same right
B: thanks for telling me
A: you're welcome
A: AND , I like Caucasian men more than Asian :P
A: so you don't have to worry about I will have a crush on you
B: :P
A: funny huh?
A: I mean the preference on Caucasian men is funny
B: i think so
A: lol
A: if you want to ask me anything about the homo thing, you can always bring it up
A: but, don't tell anyone about my sexuality tihng
A: let's just keep me semi-closeted
B: ok ofcoz la...but you want to tell me...i will listen
A: there's many thing about what happened
A: many stories in the US about my sexuality
A: They are not about sex, no worries :P
B: good~!
A: you mean good by me not talking about sex right? LOL
B: yup

Please leave comments if you have any ideas about the following conversation, I will talk about this later.

From Postsecret, exactly what I am

I want to lose some weight but I am far too lazy....

New Poll

24 Feb 2008

Today I went to get some Chinese herbs in a store and then I walked around the area. I went to mall and walk around and I found this Video store, I wanted to rent DVDs of the O.C. but it cost a lot so I decided I am not going to rent it.

Then, I saw the banner of the sex store, which is nearby where I used to go to school and I know that store exists for many year. I thought I would go there and see how much a fleshlight and dildo cost because I want one but I didn't. I feel awkward to go there.

So now I am putting this new poll and see what you guys think about it.

Quick update

1/ I am lazy

2/ I have just found out I gained more than 15 pounds since I started the medication

3/ I stopped all the crap medicine for my depression and psychosis and I went to see a Chinese herbalist.

4/ I am going to New Zealand at on the first week of March.

Anybody have any ideas about doing things in Auckland should tell me, or if you are from New Zealand (especially Auckland), please contact me

Be My Anti Valentine

100th POST!!!

After reading Troy's 100th post, I also want to write 100 things about me.

100 things about me:

1. I was born in Hong Kong
2. I was born in (probably wrong preposition for this) premature delivery (about 3 months earlier than usual)
3. I weighted about 4 pounds when I was born
4. I am only child of my parents
5. I have more than 20 cousins
6. My last name starts with T, and it’s difficult to pronounce for all English speaker
7. I am a skinhead
8. I am 5'8
9. I am overweight
10. I gained about 15 pounds since I started my anti-depressant medication last August
11. I am Chinese; sometimes I wish I am from somewhere else
12. I speak two Chinese dialects, Cantonese and Hokkien
13. I speak Mandarin too
14. I was born in December 1989
15. My lunar birthday is 11th of the 11th month
16. My Chinese zodiac is snake
17. I am a sagittarius
18. My favourite season is autumn
19. My "lucky" (maybe not) numbers are 3 and 12
20. I wear glasses
21. I love languages
22. My favourtie food is pasta
23. I am “burgerphobic”, which means I hate hamburgers
24. My mother don’t let me eat junk food when I was a kid
25. My mom was pretty strict to me when I was a kid
26. My favourite sport is table-tennis, which is kind of a stereotype for Chinese.
27. I love swimming too, but I don't have a swimmer body
28. I want to travel as many countries as I can.
29. I love skyscrapers
30. My favourite fruits are mango and pineapple
31. I listen to old songs
32. I love old things, especially antiques
33. I love counting money
34. I failed English in Primary 3 (3rd grade)
35. My weakness in English is prepositions
36. I have never broken a bon
37. My first time on an airplane is about 11
38. I love barbequed food
39. I love the sound of a xylophone
40. I don’t know what I care about the most in my life
41. My favourite TV reality show is the Amazing Race
42. Queer Eye for the Straight Guy is my favourties too
43. In Fab 5, I like Kyan
44. I love to watch Desperate Housewives, and HOUSE
45. My favourite musical is The Producers (actually Springtime for Hitler :P)
46. I love to watch cooking and traveling programmes
47. I want to be a teacher one day
48. I have pen-friends and I write letter and send them by snail mail
49. I collect stamps, coins and paper money, which make me feel I am kind of geeky
50. I am not hairy, I don't have much facial hair
51. I went to a boys’ school for 5 years
52. If I were American. I would be a Democrat
53. As above, I would vote for Obama instead of Clinton
54. I live in the US for a school year as high school exchange student
55. I stayed in the Midwest (I can't tell you which state) during my high school exchange year
56. My favorite subjects are History, French, Theatre (during exchange year)
57. I didn't join the swim team during the exchange year because I am fat, and I feel embarassed to shower with a bunch of guys, basically I was shy
58. I wish I tried the musical audition during the exchange year
59. I have more friends in the US than Hong Kong
60. I actually have less than 5 friends in Hong Kong
61. I love to make friends with people all over the world
62. I can count 1 to 10 in 4 languages
63. I hate literature
64. I tried my first beer when I was 4, believe it or not
65. I never smoke
66. I never tried any drugs
67. I wear size 13 shoes, sometimes 12, 12.5 fit
68. I have taking showers and bath
69. I don't wear jeans much because my thighs are thick
70. I have have any pets, and I don't want any pets
71. I wish I have someone to go to gym and do exercise with me
72. I always want to have a gay close friend
73. I am circumcised
74. I can’t remember my first male crush, it might happened when I was about 4
75. I think I started to discover I am gay at the age of 13
76. I think my first masturbation was at the age of 8
77. I ususally masturbate during shower
78. I love cuddling and making out more than sex
79. I don't know if I am top, bottom or versatile
80. I don't think I like anal sex
81. My cousin showed me straight porn when I was 8
82. I was a virgin until Summer 2007
83. I have an underwear fetish, I think most gay men have this
84. I have never been in love.
85. I rarely have a wet dream
86. I have crushes on some girl, but I never want to do something further with them
87. I went to prom with the girl I like
88. I don't know how to dance
89. I never ski
90. I don't feel like coming out to my family
91. I wish I do more stuffs during my high school exchange year
92. I love my host family (the family who host me during the exchange year), I feel like part of them
93. I want to have at least a million dollar when I am 40
94. I don't have to have children
95. I love going to the library
96. I wish there's more gay related books at the library
97. I have many craps in my room
98. I love jazz
99. I want to make myself a better person
100. I wish I have a happy life.

Update

I feel like it had been ages since the last post. I always want to write something but I don’t know what to talk about. It’s just because my life is kind of boring and there’s nothing special I can mention. (Right now I feel that my English sucks)

I went to Shenzhen, China (an hour from Hong Kong) to celebrate Chinese New Year with relatives from my mom’s side. I tried to get on the internet a few times but it didn’t work, that sucks. If I got the internet, I would have post another entry earlier than today.

I didn’t get many red packets this year. You know I am now 18, not a little boy (brat?) anymore, so the older relatives don’t give as much red packets to me as they did before.

Yesterday, I went to my cousin’s wedding banquet. It’s pretty good. I have many different thoughts in my mind during the whole thing. You know, as I am gay, I won’t get married which means I won’t have to do all the wedding things. And then I was thinking about how to explain the whole gay thing to my mom, I had told her that I don’t want to get married and have children, and she is fine with that. I think she had figured out something, but it is still hard for me to tell her I am gay. And then I was thinking of the whole coming out thing, I am still scared to come out to anyone and I don’t feel like coming out to any body, maybe it’s because I feel kind of insecure.

Well, I am kind of tired right now. I think I am going to bed soon.

PS. That would be great if someone check my grammar for this entry, I am serious for that.
Good news: I feel much better and not depressed